i figured i'd update but i dont really have anything that i want everyone in the world to see.  so i guess i wont really say anything cause i dont feel like everyone knowing about the only thing on my mind.  okay well the only things on my mind.  i guess i'll just keep them to myself then...

update

i have loads of pre cancerous cells... isnt that exciting?  doctor is hoping my body will kill them so he's giving me a few months... you know to dwell on the fact that i have cancer... what a nice guy.  so if my body doesnt kill it i'll be having surgery in a few months so they can cut that cancerous cervix right out.  yay.  and by then i wont have insurence with my parents so i'll be in serious debt, no doubt.  yet again my body is showing it's hatred for me in a very uncomfortable way... bleh.  hope everyone's doing as well as i am.  just kidding i hope you're all doing much better....

so... i havent updated in a while.  i guess it's about time... although no one really reads these but emily... what's up emily?  well i might have cancer of the cervix... which is really scary cause i really want kids and i think that would definetly get in the way.  the way the doctor explained it to me was if 1 is normal and 5 is cancer my lab results were a 2.... it's just one step up from normal but cancer is one fucking scary thing.  i hope everything works out i'll find out on the 31st.  not too far away.  so.... lemme tell you they had to do a biopsy and in order to do that they had to take a little piece of my cervix... god that hurt like a son of a bitch.  i hate not knowing.... i'm scared.  on the bright side of things i'm engaged!  yay.  i feel like we're already married and it's so fuckin cool.  oh and i quit both my jobs so if anyone knows of any good jobs hiring...   until then my man will support me.  i know that's what he wants anyway.

lizzi